Sunday Intentions

My backyard was a beautiful place this morning.

I was filling my mug in my kitchen sink, I looked up and was struck with

the vibrance and tranquility of my backyard. 

It has been raining this week and it has made the greens in my backyard so

saturated with color. The sun was dappling through the trees and I could tell

there was a little breeze coming up from the water. 

I made a decision, to make my tea and go drink it outside and make some peace

with myself. No phone. No notebook to make a list. Just me and William.

I also decided to lay down some intentions. It has been a rough week

and I've been hiding from a lot of things under the guise of being productive.

I'm tired of just scraping by during the days.

 I'd like to live my life more intentionally.  

It has been something I've strove for in the past and never could quite keep

up with. But this morning, in the peace of my backyard, I decided to try again.

I can use this blog to make those weekly goals and just remind myself of them. 

This week I'm going to focus on my base goals as a person. 

These will be a reoccurring theme because they're that important 

and relevant to me.

1. Make a Home for my Family

This isn't necessarily a to-do list. This isn't do laundry, make the beds, 

sweep the floors, although those are a component of it. What I want to do

is make a place where I can spend time with them and be comfortable doing it.

That means getting things done that need to get done but being sure to spend

time with them, I get into that on #2.

I can't be a good mom and have a messy house. We can't do fun activities

at the dining room table if the table is piled high with stuff I was too lazy

to put away. 

2. Lean into It

I've been hiding from my kids this week. Well, for a while longer than a week

but it's been difficult. I've convinced myself that I don't hav time to deal with my

kids because I have so many important things to do. And I do have important things

to do but it isn't my kids fault that I suck at time management and I get overwhelmed

easily. So I'm going to carve time out for my baby boys. 

When I'm in a race and I'm running low, I don't quit. I lean into it. I can

do the same for my boys. More hugs, less yelling. Smile when I see them.

Don't huff when Bear asks for another drink. Take the time to teach

them life skills. Embrace them and everything that comes with them. 

I was going to do three items but I'm just going to start with these two. 

The boys are all awake now and the day is starting, but I'm going to try to 

hold on to that peace I found this morning. 

I was able to take a couple pictures of William and his smile. 

I was so filled with love this morning. I hope that by writing this post

I can remind myself of that love when this week gets hard. 

-Ri