Maybe 2020 is Like a Mullet?

I am sooooooo feeling this meme. 😂

Barry is finally home today and everything feels right in the world. 

Just hearing him walk around the house making his work calls is the 

most wonderful thing. 

In the spirit of this meme and the absolute happiness I am feeling right now

I felt like making some resolutions. 

This year I will take it one day at a time. 

This year I will force myself out of the house and have more

experiences with the boys. 

This year I will not hide, I will not wait for the "right time", I will

not wait for anything. Having had our freedom taken away, when it is safe again

 I intend on doing ALL THE THINGS. 

I will find the joy of my boys again.

I won't take the simple things for granted again. Things like playgrounds

and splashpads, visiting family, visiting friends. 

I will also stop apologizing for doing what is right for my family.

Being on lockdown has made me realize how much social anxiety I have,

the relief of not having to explain myself has been tremendous. 

So I'm going to do what is right for my family. 

We're already halfway through the year. There's not a lot of time left

to do all the things I want to do. But I am going to do my damndest to 

really LIVE the rest of the year.  

Barry and I are back together, and together, we can do anything.  

Sunday Intentions

My backyard was a beautiful place this morning.

I was filling my mug in my kitchen sink, I looked up and was struck with

the vibrance and tranquility of my backyard. 

It has been raining this week and it has made the greens in my backyard so

saturated with color. The sun was dappling through the trees and I could tell

there was a little breeze coming up from the water. 

I made a decision, to make my tea and go drink it outside and make some peace

with myself. No phone. No notebook to make a list. Just me and William.

I also decided to lay down some intentions. It has been a rough week

and I've been hiding from a lot of things under the guise of being productive.

I'm tired of just scraping by during the days.

 I'd like to live my life more intentionally.  

It has been something I've strove for in the past and never could quite keep

up with. But this morning, in the peace of my backyard, I decided to try again.

I can use this blog to make those weekly goals and just remind myself of them. 

This week I'm going to focus on my base goals as a person. 

These will be a reoccurring theme because they're that important 

and relevant to me.

1. Make a Home for my Family

This isn't necessarily a to-do list. This isn't do laundry, make the beds, 

sweep the floors, although those are a component of it. What I want to do

is make a place where I can spend time with them and be comfortable doing it.

That means getting things done that need to get done but being sure to spend

time with them, I get into that on #2.

I can't be a good mom and have a messy house. We can't do fun activities

at the dining room table if the table is piled high with stuff I was too lazy

to put away. 

2. Lean into It

I've been hiding from my kids this week. Well, for a while longer than a week

but it's been difficult. I've convinced myself that I don't hav time to deal with my

kids because I have so many important things to do. And I do have important things

to do but it isn't my kids fault that I suck at time management and I get overwhelmed

easily. So I'm going to carve time out for my baby boys. 

When I'm in a race and I'm running low, I don't quit. I lean into it. I can

do the same for my boys. More hugs, less yelling. Smile when I see them.

Don't huff when Bear asks for another drink. Take the time to teach

them life skills. Embrace them and everything that comes with them. 

I was going to do three items but I'm just going to start with these two. 

The boys are all awake now and the day is starting, but I'm going to try to 

hold on to that peace I found this morning. 

I was able to take a couple pictures of William and his smile. 

I was so filled with love this morning. I hope that by writing this post

I can remind myself of that love when this week gets hard. 

-Ri

Introducing Weekly Themes

So, yesterday was a mess. 

Ain't gonna lie.

But, as the day wound down I was reminded of the idea of

weekly themes. I am always in need of a central thread to grow

ideas from and this fits perfectly into that idea. 

I'm great at planning these things. Not so great

at implementing them. But I did find a great resource

www.education.com

that is going to help with this. 

Next week we will be doing Under the Sea as our theme!

So we will be doing all the school stuff we need to do,

but it will be with an ocean-y type theme. Math will be counting

seashells, for example. 

So I have a plan!

And thank goodness too,

because HISD just announced they will be doing

online only schooling until October 16th so I gotta

get my ass in gear!!

Right now Barry is quarantining in our home office

while doing his feature (which they just shut down temporarily

because some people got sick.) but as soon as he is done

I will work on getting that space back and cute for the boys.

Until then, our new dining room table will come in this week

or next and I'm hoping Bear will be excited enough about it to want

to do school work in the dining room!

I'm still working on what all I will need to do each week but

I know I will need to cover:

-Math

-Science

-Handwriting

-Language

-Music

-Puzzles

-PE

And then the twins have their own stuff I need to figure out. 

I think I'll need two hours a day with Bear, and then an hour each with the twins. 

Honestly, I can't freaking wait. I LIVE for this kind of stuff,

I just don't know how to make my kid love it as much as I do. 

ESPECIALLY WHEN HE LOVES DOING IT AT SCHOOL

BUT NOT AT HOME.

You can understand my frustration?

I'm finalizing my plans for next week, when I get that finished 

I'll do another post on my ideas! 

And by my ideas I mean stuff I stole off pinterest ;)

-Ri